back in time

I really don’t know where the month of August went. It seems crazy to me that it’s September already, and even more crazy that I didn’t add anything to my book the entire month. (OK, so maybe 1,000 words total, but that doesn’t seem to be too much compared to where I was during the month of July.)

It’s definitely obvious to me that I have been experiencing writer’s block in addition to battling the everyday chaos that comes with all of the hats I wear. (Note: for some reason the “wearing hats” expression really makes me giggle. I have no idea why. I just really like it.) So my main goal for this month is to work past that.

I’m doing that a few different ways. The first is to do some research on a topic that is the main focus of the second part of my story. I think that part of my difficulties in writing lie in that I wasn’t alive during the time period I’m writing in, and so I need to try and get myself into that world so I can better get in my writing mindset. I literally requested 10 books to start my research, and I’m looking forward to it. It’s kind of crazy to think how long it’s been since I’ve done actual research from books with handwritten notes, but I think I will enjoy it. At the very least, I hope it will give me the context I need to keep writing.

I also painted my office and cleaned off my desk. I hope that having a dedicated space away from distractions will help me focus better at home and get some words down. I also hope to include a day a week at the very least that I use to just focus on my writing while Broderick is in daycare. Hopefully planning ahead and breaking that time out will help with that.

Part of my make it work goal would also be to get in a routine to allow for that, so that I am not feeling constantly behind with so many other things that need to get done. Instead, I want to make writing a priority.

Hopefully by putting some of these plans in place I’ll be able to get back into the habits I set back in July. I know it’s a process, but I think it’s a priority for me to get back to my writing routine.

figuring it out

Back in January when we set up our blog, things were slightly chaotic for me. I had just moved, changed jobs slightly and was really just trying to figure out what the heck I wanted to do with my life. I had some part-part-part-time work in marketing, which I was really excited about, and was then left to decide whether I wanted to change career paths, work more hours, work full-time, and how to balance taking care of Broderick on top of all of that.

The first part of the year got kind of crazy. I kept Broderick in daycare as I decided so we would have options depending on what happened. He got sick–a lot. A bazillion and a half ear infections and very little sleep later, we got tubes put in his ears and it’s been much better. Back in April, I decided that this goal was done¬†for the time being.

Of course, life had other plans and now, at the end of August, I’m back to my old job that I loved but with fewer hours and a little more flexibility and Broderick is in daycare three full days. He’s sick this week, so it’s been nice to be home with him (though not nice that he’s sick, obviously).

What I’ve learned from all of this is that there’s really no way to “figure it out.” There’s been jobs I’ve seen come up that I would really love to do but I also recognize that there will always be jobs and there won’t always be time with baby Broderick. What we have right now is working for us, and if it doesn’t or changes for whatever reason, we’ll find another way to make it work. I need to stop trying to figure everything out and just let things work out.

So, with that, I will be changing my goal of figuring it out to making it work–putting things in place to help our household run more smoothly and do more things with Broderick and my professional life so that things can evolve as necessary. It’s time to let go of the control-freak aspect of my personality and go with the flow and let it be. (This goal could also be called¬†get your…stuff…together but make it work sounds so much nicer. Plus I can picture Tim Gunn in my head every time I say it.)